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Growing up Amish (but never really being accepted)

Growing up, my family was always the “odd” ones that everyone made fun of and gossiped about. A deep anger grew inside of me as years passed and saw that most everything my family did was wrong, unheard of or just absurd. I never understood why we were never accepted for who we were and what we done when many other Amish families done the same and it was okay. Only until I grew older and my family found it best to move out of that Amish community, did I see what was wrong with these people. I have come to the conclusion that this problem all boiled down to (my dad’s) family greed and jealousy.

From what I’ve been told by my parents, my dad’s family was very poor and my dad has always been the “black-sheep” thru out his life. Now my mom’s family was just the opposite. Her dad started a business when she was 14 years old and have prospered with this. When my dad fell in love with my mom, my dads parents knew from gossip that my mom was from a fairly wealthy background and when they got married all hell broke loose.  From what I understand, my dad’s parents were afraid my dad was going to prosper with moms wealthy family and they had to put a stop to it, or so they thought. They tried their very best to cause trouble between my parents and they did just that for several years. My parents had their problems and every single one, when traced, led back to his parent’s greed and hatred. Years later dad’s family are still fighting, now not just amongst themselves but with lawyers and such. I’m not trying to judge them but I am still dealing with the inner anger inside. Depriving not only my dad but his wife and family all because of greed, jealousy which now turned to hatred.

For a simple example, as children, my parents made the decision to send us 6 kids to a public school and my dad’s parents made remarks on several occasions that sending us to get a better education, in a public school, would be a danger to our family. Like making friends with school kids outside of the Amish faith. I know my parents wanted the best for us but with not many Amish attending that school, we grew up Amish with many “English” friends. This passed on the gossip around in the community and caused us to feel like outcasts as well.

Most of my family moved almost a 1000 miles and the rest moved about 200 miles from this particular community. Since we made the move, my dad visited his family while he was in the area and was told that he or any of our family were no longer welcomed there. What I still don’t understand is why we were never accepted (Amish or not). I don’t ever recall my dad doing anything to any of these people to deserve such hatred from his family.

Almost NO Amish families are like this, but I can honestly say this has made my family A LOT closer and appreciate one another more. I can only hope my dad’s family can find peace with themselves somehow.

Blueberry Muffins

Looks AmAzInG 🙂

Mikey's In My Kitchen

My family is growing faster than I could have ever imagined!

I have a new sister-in-law, a new nephew and another little niece/nephew on the way!

I went to visit my new little nephew last week and couldn’t go empty handed.

Mikey’s sister, Bonnie, is an amazingly strong and beautiful friend and sister to me.

She had a perfect labor and delivery and we are all so excited to have little Grady Michael in our lives.

He is the teeniest, most adorable little peanut, and I can’t wait to watch him grow and learn about his personality.

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Breaking Amish (The opinion of an ex-Amish girl)

First of all, I grew up Amish and know a lie when I hear one, especially if its concerns the Amish way of life. This show is the farthest from the truth that I have ever seen concerning the Amish. I know there are a lot of people out in the world who have never seen an Amish person and are fascinated by their simplicity of life. This reality show is a shame for those who don’t know anything about the Amish and believe everything these “windy” cast members have to say.

Now about the five cast members, there are public records proving these 5 cast members have all left the Amish-Mennonite long before going to “experience the world for the first time” in NY. I have read article after article about these cast members past and some are quite sticky situations. Please let me explain. First of all, Jeremiah is now in his early thirties and has been around the block a time or two, if I dare say. He has been married, has three children and is divorced as of 2011 for cruelty and neglect of duty. Rebbecca and Abe now have a child together. Abe has said on the show, (episode 2) that he never partied and that statement is false because there is a mugshot of him being arrested for public intoxication in Kentucky. Kate was arrested in Florida for DUI in 2012. Sabrina has records of being married in 2009 and as far as we know is still married. Attached is a link to a Facebook page where public information has been posted by Ex Amish who know the honest truth about these five cast members.

Serenity Prayer…

God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

By: Reinhold Niebuhr

Life growing up as an Old Order Amish girl.

I grew up with 5 siblings on a decent sized farm about 3 miles from town. My dad worked a number of jobs over the years as well as keeping the crops, animals and us kids well taken care of. My mom stayed at home and did all the cooking, cleaning, sewing, gardening, etc. She was a stay-at-home mom until all the children were no longer in school and on their own. Then she worked at a local bakery as a secretary for 3 years. They moved away from the Amish farm 2 years ago and they now live only a couple miles from me here in Florida, and they are members of a local New Order Amish church.

Going to school is one of my favorite stories to tell because to this day I admire and thank my parents for sending us children to a wonderful public school 7 miles away. We had an Amish schoolhouse not even a mile from our home but neither of my parents wanted us children to go to a school where it was acceptable to think that education wasn’t very necessary. It was a tradition to have “fresh out of school” girls go back and teach the younger students until they were old enough to get a job elsewhere. To me, this was NOT something that was okay, thank goodness my parents agreed. Unfortunately not many Amish parents send their children to a public school because they thought it was dangerous to let their children interact with the “English”.

Another of my favorite stories is that not all ex-Amish kids are shunned by their families once they openly share their decision of leaving. A lot of Amish reality shows blow things way out of proportion and dramatize it, which is deceiving for those who are honestly fascinated by the Amish religion. Now don’t get me wrong, there are those Amish families which are “torn apart” because of the fact they decide there is more “out there” for them. There are 2 of us in my family that have decided to leave the Amish faith and “step out into the world”. My parents,(especially my mom), are very open-minded, understanding and are supportive of our choices. I respect them for their beliefs, even though I no longer agree with a lot of it. There is good and bad in every religion and I’m not trying to say my family is perfect,(because we are by far not). I am just fortunate enough to have a loving family and all opportunities that I’ve had over the years and am grateful for every one.